It’s been an interesting week. Monday was an amazing day. I felt great. All the exercises were flowing, I had a lot of emotions behind them and didn’t need much effort to do them. I remember thinking about the service card and what I would put on it and my brain said whatever you choose, it’s already done! That was pretty cool!
Then Tuesday came and I felt different. Monday I was up, Tuesday and Wednesday I was down. Not sad, just blah, like my old blueprint was pretty much in full control. Everything was a struggle. I had to force emotions to every single read and exercise. I procrastinated doing the exercises, but I did get them done. I had to be very intentional to actually keep all my promises. I did and that was awesome, but it was just a freaking chore! All that said, today (Thursday) was a great day – up we go again :-)! Things came much easier today and I feel really good.
The whole opinion exercise I am still struggling with. I still find myself finishing a conversation and then after it’s over and then realized all I did was give my opinion. However, I am much more aware today and I am finding myself thinking about it during conversations and trying to stop it from happening. Progress!
Movie Poster is in process. I seem to be procrastinating on this. Not sure why, but it’s obviously the old blueprint. That’s going to end Friday as it’s getting done period! My goals and shapes are up. I think my wife thinks I’m nuts. Ha Ha! Have one in my car on my dash too – thanks for that awesome idea Mark! I do take long showers so maybe one their too :-).
I still have to intentionally remind myself to look for the shapes and colors and associate them. But that’s ok. I know one day it will just start happening w/out even thinking about it.
At the end of the day, I know things are beginning to change. I will keep doing the work day in and day out. Keep building the foundation. Keep building momentum. I form good habits and become their slave! I’m worth it. I can be what I will to be! I Love You Keith Toborg! 🙂